it has come to my attention lately,

that i've become ONE OF THE GUYS,

more often than i should be.

seen as one of them,

treated as one of them,

taken as one of them,

i'm even starting to talk like one of them.

situation is getting more severe, i assure you. LOL

problem is, i like being one of them.

no, i'm not gay.

and my preference for *dicks* is still as obvious as ever.

my feminine side is still very well intact, i hope (at least i think it is)

it's just that, i'd rather be seen at most,

as JUST A FRIEND,

than, as a girl they could like.

afterall, most of them treat FRIENDS better than how they would treat their chicks,

no??

ah-hak!

but then again, these days,

i, SOMETIMES (quite often actually), have to DEFEND my sexuality,

and stress on the point that i am afterall A GIRL.

beneath all the jokes, they sometimes strike the right note.

it's gone too far.

while i love the fact that i bond with em dudes easier than i do with chics,

i fear that this will occur to often ,

i wonder if i've missed a step on the way?

have i gone over-board?

did i block out all the possibilities?

afterall, i'm still a girl.

the past few weeks have been crazy!!

i think i've become an over achiever

pushed for too much,

in a sense that i've got too much goin on.

my plate is over-flowing.

i was kept busy...yesh.

but too much of it.

not complaining, i like and enjoy workloads.

love the rush i get when i have a lot of things to do.

but i think i strectched myself tad too much.

so, i came up with a list of things to do after all the craziness,

with ting, my girls, and my beloved hippo.

_vacation_

_shopping_

_pampering ourselves_

_vain away_

_relax_

_beach_

_pillow talks_

_back to childhood moments_

_rides_ (not that sort)

BUT,

as much as i'd love to do all that,

i mite not have that much time.

sorry ting,

mite be taking intensive french course in december.

3 times per week,

4 hours per lesson.

just alot to do.but promise, i'd spent AS much time as i can with you.